Another one of those regular working days in Mumbai with all the slaves with white collars clinging to the edges of the doors of the local trains just to get to their respective workplaces in time. Tough job being an employee in a city like Mumbai and it’s even worse if you don’t have a job that pays you around 15 to 20 K per month because then you have to find an accommodation on the suburbs of Mumbai because those are the only places where you can find flats on rent at a cheaper cost. The reason why I say it’s tough is because if you have a flat in the suburbs of Mumbai and you are working in some other place then you have to experience the crowded local trains everyday, especially during office time (morning 8-10 am) and evening (evening 6-10 pm) they are most crowded and during that time you get a place to put both your feet on the ground only if you’re lucky.
In spite of this city being so crowded I get the feeling that everyone is so alone in this city. Maybe I am wrong because I am deprived of any kind of company here in my stay in Mumbai and I am all alone and by myself but still you can’t help but wonder whether these people (including myself) who are working their asses out everyday, are they really happy with what they are doing ? I don’t think so because that’s written all over their faces that they are not happy with whatever they are today. Though it’s none of my business to point fingers at people so I will speak for myself.
NO, I am not happy with whatever I am doing. Maybe it’s the initial time during the job that I am finding it hard and will get used to it after some time because that’s the way humans are, they start adjusting with things rather than fighting them, maybe I will do the same but to be honest I think I am much more capable than what I am deserving right now. There are times when I think about doing something else but then I am not able to move forward not because I can’t find any options but because I am faced with a problem of plenty, I know I sound like a smartass but that’s true, or maybe I should say that I am just too lazy to do anything so I prefer sitting on my ass and wait for things to happen for me.
As Gregory Peck said in Roman Holiday that “Life is not what you always like!” so maybe that’s the way of the world. Sacrificing your dreams so that your future generations come good but the matter seems to be a financial one in my case. I recall the last lines from my one of my favorite hindi poems in school which perfectly describes my present scenario..
एक दिखने वाली मेरी इस देह में
दो “मै” है |
एक मै और एक मेरा पिट्ठू |
मै तो खैर एक मामूली सा क्लर्क हू
पर मेरा पिट्ठू
वह जीनियस है |